I didn’t get scared at all, in fact i was really happy to read your e-mail because i’ve been dying to talk to you as well. Now regarding your question... There are tons of answers and i don’t think any is the right one. Humans need to believe that there is something greater influencing everything. Only a few people have the courage to step up and shout out loud that there is no such thing, that there is absolutely nothing controling their life.
I am one of the persons that don’t have the courage to deny God out loud. I don’t believe in His existence yet i always make the cross sign whenever i walk outside of my home. You see, when you deny God’s existence you exclude yourself from the society because people judge. The fact that there are so many christians is just a proof that everybody wants to blend in, that people find it a lot more comfortable to be just like everybody else because let’s face it, when you try to rise above everybody else you’ll realize that they will do their best to drag you back down. And it sucks big time...
I do believe that we are the only ones controling our destiny and how good or bad each day can be, i do believe that there are no miracles of God, just miracles of the human body or the soul. On the other hand, my girlfriend is a real believer and it kind of freaks me out. She always „blames” things on God’s will and she always turns to God whenever things are good or bad. I sometimes feel sorry for her because she just doesn’t realize that she’s the one responsible for the outcome of her days. She even „blames” God for meeting me which is stupid because i met her at a party where she was drunk as hell. Nevertheless, my point is that i would do something to change everybody, i would make them all break out of the „christian prison” so that they can just liive their life as they should. But i don’t know what so i rather live like i know and sometimes enjoy the little things that the church offers. By enjoying i understand having fun as in easter when I usually hang out all night long with a few of my friends.
So tell that person you were talking about that what she did is really brave and that she should be proud. We could talk on this topic for ages without reaching a conclusion to be honest...
Sara, let’s play a game! It feels really great to talk to you so I was thinking if we can play a questions game. Let’s keep talking through e-mails until we find time to talk live again but let’s ask questions, give answers to them and then end with another question. I will presume you like this idea and start with a simple question.
I sometimes feel like what I am doing at the moment is a waste of time. I often feel that I am simply wasting my life with the simple things that happen around me. I do have a purpose, a really big dream I am fighting to achieve but it I am not sure I will be able to do it in this life. So my question is: Do you believe in the after life or in reincarnation?
Best of wishes, take care!
Hugs and kisses,
-That should do it, said David as he clicked the “Send” button. Aw, damn it! It took me a hole hour to write an e-mail?! It doesn’t matter actually… Why didn’t I meet this girl before? Damn it Sara, you should have been my girlfriend and I would have gave you the love you seek and more!
To be continued...